Lat year, at this time, I was pregnant and I was hormonally a mess. We live up the street from a nursery, so on extreme off days, I would haul my huge pregnant belly out of the house and roam the aisles of endless plants. Typically, I'd come home with a plant or two to brighten my spirits, and for some reason, it always worked. I bought A LOT of plants last January. We ended up with way more than we could care for (roughly 15-20 is our limit), or even had room for. After a few months, many didn't end up making it. It hurt my heart to see that my need for some simple cheering up had selfishly resulted in their inevitable doom. Joe put me on a strict "no plant-buying" regulation, and I've followed it ever since.
In a recent email exchange with a friend, I came to the realization that I'm not too keen on January. It has nothing to do with whether or not I'm pregnant. Perhaps the start of a new year just feels so daunting in a multitude of ways, or maybe January is a not-so-friendly reminder than time moves too fast in our not-so-long lives. I don't know about you, but the older I get, the more it feels like I'm spending my days treading water and constantly trying to catch up (to what, I don't know). It's also possible that I'm simply over thinking it all, and this whole distaste for the first month of the year is actually a common epidemic. I have a tendency to do that. Over think things.
I feel that now that I'm aware of my internal issues with January, I can take the proper steps to avoid being such a poopy pants for an entire four weeks. Half way in, and I'm deciding to turn my stupid frown upside down. To not be so hard on some insignificant month. To not be so hard on time, on life, on myself. There won't be any plant-buying involved, obviously. Actually, I'm not sure what it's going to involve, but it's going to be awesome.
Flowers, Fredric Akum
I have a very similar issue, although I typically just dislike ALL of January and February. I think I have a touch of seasonal depression.
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed reading this. I think the time thing gets to me a lot. When I was younger I wanted to just have time hurry up and now I want it to slow down. My thinking on a lot of stuff has changed dramatically in the last few months and it's really making me value the time I have NOW. Which makes me freak out a little when I realize how quickly it all goes by. Good luck with enjoying the rest of the month!!
ReplyDeleteI, too, suffer from seasonal affective disorder (self-diagnosed). Fortunately, we're having a mild winter, here in Arkansas; it actually feels more like springtime. Yesterday, it was 70 degrees and sunny! I am soaking up the vitamin D whenever possible, and I'm working out more; I figure exercise can help me avoid the funk. Hang in there. xo.
ReplyDeleteit's totally sunny here and i still hate Jan + Feb.
ReplyDeleteenlighten us when you figure it all out, mkay ladypants??
I think the sinus infections I get in Dec/Jan drag me down. When I woke up this morning, I could have sworn it was still the first week of January. I'm off to buy a fig tree.
ReplyDeletei spent all winter cursing about the lack of snow. Now that we finally got some in Mid January I can't stop being extremely FUSSY.
ReplyDeleteI definitely understand about the way you're feeling this month. I recently had a similar conversation with friends about how we all liked to wear gray and black in January. Everything feels so dull during this month - nothing too exciting happening and the days are gray. Post holiday depression/winter depression/ etc. It all makes so much sense!
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