We weren't on the same page today. Maybe I woke up a little off this morning, or maybe it was you. Maybe it was both of us. All I know is that today is the day you learned how to spell defiance with a capital D, and the immense level of frustration that that caused me only resulted in an abundance of hurt feelings on your part. And I know that I should know better, be smarter, and always do the right thing because, after all, I'm the grownup. But as much as I wholeheartedly wish it was, our relationship is just not that simple.
Right now, I am your world. I am amazing, and I am perfect. The truth is, however, that I am just kind of cool and very far from any level of perfection. I try with all my might to do my best, but sometimes my best falls short. Eventually, you will see this. You will learn that loving someone with the intensity that I love you (whether it be a friend, or a pet, or a partner) is bound to lead to absurd behavior that is entirely fueled by emotion. You will learn that it is a human condition to become especially angry and lose our patience with the ones we hold closest to our hearts. You will learn that the reason I lost it this afternoon when the childcare staff at our gym had to bust out a ladder to get you off of a play structure that you refused to come down from on your own, was not because I don't want you to have fun on play structures. It was more so because I don't ever, and I mean EVER, want you to be in any sort of situation where a ladder is needed to save you. That sounds somewhat fair, right?
So as I sit here and listen to you sing the Happy Birthday Song to yourself in bed for what's been a good 45 minutes now, I remind myself that tomorrow is another day. And I'll quietly go into your room and remind you that right now is time for bed.
You are my favorite, babycakes.